Deep Blue Blog

Wow, I didn't expect anything like that, Luke. Just thought someone might take a glance at it and say "interesting", not write a long, thoughtful response. But thanks, I appreciate it. I'm always happy to hear feedback. Guess it never occured to me that you'd be perfect for such a thing.

As for most of your responses, I agree with you. Keep in mind I wrote that essay 5 years ago, when I was only 16 and hadn't read so much as a lick of ACTUAL philosophy. Those were crazy times, and many of my ideas were only wishful thinking, such as all that about love and soul-mates. And the whole part at the end about rebelling and tearing down the wall, that was just adolescent bullshit. But I keep the essay there because it all came from the heart and like it or not, it does mark the genesis of my philosophical career. You'd probably get a lot more out of the third essay, which deals with humanity and why we should try to make the world a better place. Ideals which you seem to strongly champion yourself.

As for God, and whether it can be conscious, you'll find the answer in my second essay, the one I wrote at Autumn lane. I think that God is conscious, not necessarily as on omniscient being but through you and me and every other sentient being or entity in the universe. God is constantly creating the world, but not as a detatched phenomenon hovering in a dimension above the universe, but from right behind your eyes. God IS consciousness, and exists simultaneously in every conscious being at all times, constantly experiencing the universe and giving it meaning through things like us.

As for Jesus, I'm not sure anymore. When I wrote that I was still in my final phases of detatchment from christianity. I believed that Jesus was a soul who decided to come to earth with power over the illusion, able to change things (matrix-style) and aware of the greater Truth that most of us blind ourselves to. Now I think it's just as likely that he was nothing more than a talented magician with some nice ideas about God and love, who by a fluke in history ended up affecting the world more than any other human being who ever lived. But there's really no way to know, so this would be an instance where Truth is whatever a certain individual believes. I believe the world would be a lot better off if we stopped seeing him as God, but that's an entirely different issue.

Everything I wrote about judgment day was bullshit. Still clinging to christian concepts and trying to make them fit with my new ideas. Also this was the central idea behind my 825-page book I had written at the time.

What you wrote at the end is absolutely true, that all we know for sure in this life is that we have this life to live and we have the power to decide where it goes and what to do with it. As for what exists beyond our limitted knowledge of the universe, I merely offer possibilities. But if humanity is ever going to grow beyond this state of war and savagery we all need to realise that our fate IS a choice and we are consantly choosing it. Whether or not it has been chosen by God beforehand is irrelevant. Either we endure as a species or we go extinct. And if we keep believing that the world is going to end someday and we have no control over it, that's what will happen. It's the same with our individual lives. If we believe things are hopeless and we're already beaten, we are. But if we keep in mind that we are the masters of our own destiny, that we have the power to shape our lives the way we want and we actively work towards making it happen, then regardless of whether we go on after death we can be satisfied with our time here.

Damn, I didn't expect to be preaching like that on this blog. But yeah, that's my two cents on these matters.

As for Corey, I'm really glad to hear that you'd be willing to help me help him. I'll let him know and maybe soon he'll begin making appearances on the blog. He's an extremely interesting character, so he could spice things up here.

And finally, I can't wait to come back and talk about all this positive-mental-attitude shit with you in person. I've already grown quite a bit in my time here and when I return I plan on becoming a whole new Kem. Much more self-confident and positive. Maybe no longer AFRAID of women but someone who might actually be attractive to them. Of course this could just be wishful thinking but with your help in staying focussed on the "master-of-my-own-destiny" idea, I see no reason I can't be succesful.

Adios. Auf Wiedersehen. Au revoir. See ya.